Nothing But Bullshit

Everyone's on a move

Everyone's acting crude

Whatever happen to that saying

About one spirit and one nation

It's never a matter about race

Nor about religion or sexuality

It's about being proud of who you are

Without it defining you

You see them leaders preach

You see those videos sing

For some reason they don't practice what they preach

This is what we call nothing but bullshit

As you see me trying to soar through

Seeping in the cracks and trying to make it big

But there's a lot of bureaucracy and policies

That censors me from being me

I just can't believe

That why the fuck would you censor the word booty? 

This song isn't meant to preach

It's just me expressing myself

I need to have a disclaimer

Unless I want to see myself in a prison cellar

You see them leaders preach

You see those videos sing

For some reason they don't practice what they preach

This is what we call nothing but bullshit

I am just a boy coming to you

From a place where you still think we live in trees

Fact is we are so much better, nicer and understanding

Nah, it's just bullshit to make you feel bitter. 

Call it a song or call it a poem

The labels don't matter my dear people

I am just here having fun

Talking about nothing but bullshit

Boy on the Train

It's a Friday, heading to the weekend

Everybody's waiting for the day to end

Grudging on the line, waiting for the train

I am usually like of of them

But not today

Because today, I get to see you

The boy, on the train

I see your black hair and your sexy brown eyes

I instantly swoon and it makes my day

The boy, on the train

You don't know how much you mean to me

And I don't think you know I exist

But I just wanna say one thing

I hope you notice and like me too

I see you already with your earphones on

Standing on the side acting nonchalant

I could not help myself but wonder about you and me

But as I snap back to reality

You are nothing but

The boy, on the train

I see your black hair and your sexy brown eyes

I instantly swoon and it makes my day

The boy, on the train

You don't know how much you mean to me

And I don't think you know I exist

But I just wanna say one thing

I hope you notice and like me too

I know I am stalking

It is illegal and

if you know this

It will probably make you uncomfortable

But that is why

I stand at the sidelines

Waiting for fate to bring us together

But for now, you are

The boy, on the train

I see your black hair and your sexy brown eyes

I instantly swoon and it makes my day

The boy, on the train

You don't know how much you mean to me

And I don't think you know I exist

But I just wanna say one thing

I hope you notice and like me too

Rise Up

Rise up, rise up, time for a revolution
Rise up, rise up, time to awaken
Rise up, rise up, for a new sensation
Rise up, rise up, it's the signal
For a new Brendan

I was gone and now I am back
Time has passed and nothing lasts
It's time for a new makeover
And the time to take over

Cause when I was down
I had no one
Felt like I was buried (in the ground)
But like a phoenix from the ashes
Rising from my remants
I have finally returned
And now is the time to change so everyone better prepare yourself because...
It's time to...

Rise up, rise up, time for a revolution
Rise up, rise up, time to awaken
Rise up, rise up, for a new sensation
Rise up, rise up, for the new Brendan

Hail to your renewed king
Let me hear the sirens sing
Celebrate my coronation
And prepare for new resolutions

This ain't no fluke
I am no longer a duke
I am a leader in my own realm (like Odin of Asgard)
They better watch out
They better beware
I am out for blood
And there is no mercy, no kindness and no remorse because
I am going to

Rise up, rise up, time for a revolution
Rise up, rise up, time to awaken
Rise up, rise up, for a new sensation
Rise up, rise up, for the new Brendan

In my depression
I realised that there is no one there for me
When I was broken
I realised that no one cares about me
When I looked up
I realised that there is no one to help me but myself
So fuck friends, fuck God,
I only trust and believe in me
I am my own strength
I am my own faith
And now it's time to

Rise up, rise up, time for a revolution
Rise up, rise up, time to awaken
Rise up, rise up, for a new sensation
Rise up, rise up for the new Brendan

It's been a while...

Why hello there, Brendzblog Legionnaires. Yes, it certainly has been quite a while since I posted something for all of you. Things have been somewhat happening. Here is the DL

One: Australs Debating Championship

Yes, I went to Australs, didn't do as well as I expected. As my growth as a debater and an adjudicator has probably met with some obstacles. I certainly realized that I can be better if I have a more experienced team. I find myself leaning towards the fact that I do better if I have people giving me input and work with me. My team does not do that, trust me. Loads of kinks and amateur mistakes were made. Given the fact that there was 3 wins, which is not bad considering a team that was essentially spelling chaos from the beginning, I am somewhat happy and satisfied. However, I certainly did not regret going to Australs. Met great people and hopefully, I get to meet them again.

Two: Graduation

Well, college life is going to be over, whether I like it or not. It certainly is a great time in my life. I certainly hope that there are greater moments that will come. However, I am not the kind of person that reminisce the past, I have to move forward and see what life takes me.

Three: Identity crisis

I have been going through a sort of an identity crisis and I guess I have been undergoing it quite a while. It's certainly a huge change when in the past, I know who I am and I know what I want. But now, things are getting so blurry that I cannot identify who I am as a person any more. I feel like I am losing a part of myself somehow some way. This has definitely been a challenging year for me. I certainly do hope that my path is straight once more. Don't worry, I noticed that I have lost my edge, so yes, I shall regain it again.

Four: Writing

Starting writing stories and now back to a block. I hate myself sometimes.

Five: Romance

What is that?

Six: Berlin Worlds Universities Debating Championship

Let me just say this. There is always politics when something as grand as this is at stake. It's never about sending the best, it's sending who they think is best. Looks like Europe will have to wait.

Seven: Networking

I hate it. I really really hate it. It's so fucking fake.

Eight: Location after graduation

Current plan? What plan? I am a dandelion in the sky. Floating, wandering. Aimlessly with the direction of the win.

Nine: Dogs

I miss my dogs, my babies.

Ten: You guys

Thanks for 6 years of dedication and reading through all my crap. Well, almost six. Six in August though, so that must be very exciting, haha. Anyway, yes. I promise I will pop in from time to time. Although it's frequency, I am certainly quite unsure of. Till then, XOXO.

Depressed

Things are not going as planned.
Haven't felt this down in a while
I have to say
Nothing interesting so far happening in my life
I guess I am slowly weaning off blogging.

Looking back, I have more friends now than before
I have very close friends who I miss almost everyday and are practically family.
I was busy with school and clubs.
Now, I actually have a lot of free time
But rather plan on staying home...
I don't know.
Felt like this shouldn't happen.
Its a challenging year for me.

Final year of study
Contemplating on whether to ever get this stupid accounting degree to good use
Whether will I ever make it in Hollywood when I am in actuality in the wrong country
Wrong career path as well by the way.

I wouldn't lie, I don't have friends in Australia here.
I am alone
It's tough sometimes you know
Knowing that friendships take time to grow and shit.
That this will take a while
Darn.
People have life and roots here, everything is so rooted and stable there.
It's hard for me to break in even.
Well, mainly because no one's been going through drama and shit yet.
I guess I probably have to put myself out more.

I need to be more comfortable here
I need to make Sydney my temporary home
It's not where I belong
But I need to make myself feel like I belong, just for a while.
Save enough cash and make that break.
Thing is
I want to do it
Why am I not doing it?

Asian Drivers

Kuching is not safe any more. It is no longer the quaint, polite and quiet small town that it has used to be. This is because of the presence of drivers who no longer care about the simple courtesy and safety of others on the road. The town that used to pride in hospitality and politeness has become an equivalently uncaring Asian city that is even more depressing by the lack of decent shopping malls. 

Motorcycles now hog the center of the road rather than allowing cars to pass through. Cars speed and shift between lanes repeatedly like they are racing while trying to overtake others. People do not use the indicator to indicate that they are changing lanes or turning in. It is common for someone to drive the wrong side of the road to get to a certain area because it's 'faster'. Traffic lights that were meant to regulate traffic and ensure the safety of all road users are now nothing but glorified colourful lamp posts. People now use the flash instead of the honk for some reason. The worse of all is when people try to take justice into their own hands by dangerously risking their lives and others by doing illegal manoeuvres just to punish someone. 

Most of you probably think that I am just being ridiculous or its just a concern from some faux intellectual that tries to be smart and show off his 'powderful England.' This is however, serious. I don't feel safe driving in Kuching roads. I actually hate driving period. If given what I wanted, I would actually buy myself a tank and cruise down the roads, knocking everything away in my path. Sucks to be you, the driver who has to suffer from my tank. At the very least, I know, I am safe.  

Bringing Back the Debate

I guess you can call it a comeback.
I have decided to make a comeback and head back into debating
Things is, the whole experiencing World Universities Championship in Berlin sounds very tempting
So I have indeed decided that I should go back to debating for one last hurrah
I am graduating next year and I want to make my final year memorable
Although it is going to be tough with new subjects that are obviously more difficult than ever
Adding towards juggling a new job in tow
Plus, my commitments to my first love in theatre.
I guess, next semester will be a wild one.
More updates soon, I promise :)