H is for the hours you spent away
A is for the anger in my veins
T is for the terrible way you treat
E is for the emotions that blind me
How can I be so stupid
As if it's ridiculous for me to love you
Tell me why deep down I knew it would not last
Even if it lasted for a while
I hate you
You broke my heart
I hate you
You tore me apart
God please tell me
Why am I so stupid
To fall for some fuck like you
Trash like you should have never
be able to get someone like me
H is the hell you put me through
A is the altercations we had
T is for all the time that I wasted on you
E is for everyone to see what a fuck you are
I know that hate equals care
But that is all because of my anger
But deep down inside
I know it's only indifference
I hate you
You broke my heart
I hate you
You tore me apart
God please tell me
Why am I so stupid
To fall for some fuck like you
Trash like you should have never
be able to get someone like me
I know I would be fine
A loser like you would never bring me down
I have pride, diginity and class
While you are nothing but some trash
That I should have never even met
I hate you
You broke my heart
I hate you
You tore me apart
God please tell me
Why am I so stupid
To fall for some fuck like you
Trash like you should have never
be able to get someone like me
I leave you one note
That you better change
Cause I don't want the next guy
to suffer from
a bitch like you
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
A Short Note from the Golden Lounge of Qantas in Singapore
In the famous catchphrase of Krusty the Clown 'Hey Hey Hey' all the way from the superficial tropical version of London in an island known as Singapore. Now, I decided not to bring my laptop along due to the fact of a new copyright law, so I can't talk much with you guys and my one blog post a day plan remains obviously ruined again (London was an excuse, but this is a valid reason, well slightly invalid but stronger than London's). Sigh, adding more homework only, lol. Also, my cell is unable to connect to Twitter or Facebook, so my status updates are also left in vain. It just goies to show how us humans are now so dependent on our electronic devices that it gets downright frustrating that it just doesn't work.
Just a short summary of my trip ie a helluva long wordy post so be prepared to squint your eyes people!!! Or so I think it is, I dunno, I have like an hour to type before leaving for an 8 hour flight towards Sydney.
So just a short summary on my trip:
Arrived on airport around 10 or 11 as flight leaves at 12, checked in and had Starbucks with family. Got my BRAND NEW DEODERANT FROM UBER MEN CHUCKED INTO THE TRASH because it is only 25 FREAKING ML MORE THAN THE DAMN LIMIT! ARGH!!! So ticked off. Not to mention, my dad is on hyper stress mode, cussing here and there, (here and there meaning me), don't worry, I am already used to the degrading verbal abuse.
After that we arrived on the plane and guess who decided to make a guest appearance in this episode of my life? MAKRETING CONCEPT LECTURER: Lynn Wee! OMG!! HAHA, pleasantly surprised, I know. After leaving, we checked into the Marriot Hotel and had a blast at the 27th floor. I forgot to take the pic of the room though, sad, but later I will show u pics of my bro in a bathrobe in the bathroom! I also got my hair before the trip... HATES IT! Damn should have waited for the better one!
Since we were on a bit of a time crunch, we only went to Bugis for shopping. HUGE discounts on my fav store TOPMAN!, bought a purple shirt for CNY! Also went there and bought a new watch from a stall there, the watch isn't cheap but it is not expensive either, the design is quite impeccably cool, and I also kinda got enticed by the hot chick selling them, haha. Okay, a part of my watch dropped, screw that bitch for selling me that stupid watch!
Also, the people in Singapore are like H.O.T.! Seriously, I have never seen so many people, locals and foreigners alike that I would so like to date and have sex with haha! Seriously! Hey, a certain Canadian Hot Chick is studying there right?? God, and funny thing is that they looked at me too but kinda not liking my ahir so.. I need to shave off that effing hair and lose weight and... Kuching makes me fat because there is absolutely nothing to do there and if there is something to do, then all those stupid suburban bozos will be there and I am not like them, so yeah. You get the point and no Darren you cannot borrow my iPhone. No Darren I seriously mean it, no! Darren needs to chat in MSN but the comp in the lounge got no msn.
Oh, and I also had problems guiding a certain direction illiterate person through the Singaporean street who acts as if she knows the way but actually doesn't and since she is on a higher heirachy in terms of family positioning than me, it all ended with us walking around like aimless ducks on the streets. Also, I have to use colours and numbers to explain to her.GOD!
So here goes like this: We need to go to use the red train and the go to City Hall in order to connect to the Green Train to get to Bugis. But we stop at the wrong station so because this is for the purple train so we need to go back to the red train again and go to the next stop which has the green train.
Her question: Oh oh oh so we go which way?
Me: Didn't you look at the sign?
She looks (directions point towards the left but she looks towards the escaltor which is her left): There?
Me: *slaps head and points toward the actual direction*
Her: Oh that way... How do we get there?
Me: *ignore*
And you ask me why I rather travel alone or with friends, backpacking and living in very very cheap and dirty hotels and probably having to resort to prostitution to get by rather than an all expense trip stay at Disneyland Paris with my whole family...
Just a short summary of my trip ie a helluva long wordy post so be prepared to squint your eyes people!!! Or so I think it is, I dunno, I have like an hour to type before leaving for an 8 hour flight towards Sydney.
So just a short summary on my trip:
Arrived on airport around 10 or 11 as flight leaves at 12, checked in and had Starbucks with family. Got my BRAND NEW DEODERANT FROM UBER MEN CHUCKED INTO THE TRASH because it is only 25 FREAKING ML MORE THAN THE DAMN LIMIT! ARGH!!! So ticked off. Not to mention, my dad is on hyper stress mode, cussing here and there, (here and there meaning me), don't worry, I am already used to the degrading verbal abuse.
After that we arrived on the plane and guess who decided to make a guest appearance in this episode of my life? MAKRETING CONCEPT LECTURER: Lynn Wee! OMG!! HAHA, pleasantly surprised, I know. After leaving, we checked into the Marriot Hotel and had a blast at the 27th floor. I forgot to take the pic of the room though, sad, but later I will show u pics of my bro in a bathrobe in the bathroom! I also got my hair before the trip... HATES IT! Damn should have waited for the better one!
Since we were on a bit of a time crunch, we only went to Bugis for shopping. HUGE discounts on my fav store TOPMAN!, bought a purple shirt for CNY! Also went there and bought a new watch from a stall there, the watch isn't cheap but it is not expensive either, the design is quite impeccably cool, and I also kinda got enticed by the hot chick selling them, haha. Okay, a part of my watch dropped, screw that bitch for selling me that stupid watch!
Also, the people in Singapore are like H.O.T.! Seriously, I have never seen so many people, locals and foreigners alike that I would so like to date and have sex with haha! Seriously! Hey, a certain Canadian Hot Chick is studying there right?? God, and funny thing is that they looked at me too but kinda not liking my ahir so.. I need to shave off that effing hair and lose weight and... Kuching makes me fat because there is absolutely nothing to do there and if there is something to do, then all those stupid suburban bozos will be there and I am not like them, so yeah. You get the point and no Darren you cannot borrow my iPhone. No Darren I seriously mean it, no! Darren needs to chat in MSN but the comp in the lounge got no msn.
Oh, and I also had problems guiding a certain direction illiterate person through the Singaporean street who acts as if she knows the way but actually doesn't and since she is on a higher heirachy in terms of family positioning than me, it all ended with us walking around like aimless ducks on the streets. Also, I have to use colours and numbers to explain to her.GOD!
So here goes like this: We need to go to use the red train and the go to City Hall in order to connect to the Green Train to get to Bugis. But we stop at the wrong station so because this is for the purple train so we need to go back to the red train again and go to the next stop which has the green train.
Her question: Oh oh oh so we go which way?
Me: Didn't you look at the sign?
She looks (directions point towards the left but she looks towards the escaltor which is her left): There?
Me: *slaps head and points toward the actual direction*
Her: Oh that way... How do we get there?
Me: *ignore*
And you ask me why I rather travel alone or with friends, backpacking and living in very very cheap and dirty hotels and probably having to resort to prostitution to get by rather than an all expense trip stay at Disneyland Paris with my whole family...
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Possessed
Lying down there on the street
Aimless and fazed
I almost didn't recognize you
You look like you haven't shaved for weeks
So haggard and tired
It shocks me that you are now like this
What happpen to you
Where did it all go wrong
I couldn' believe it
That the guy I used to know is now gone
You seem possessed by another soul
You don't look like yourself
It seems that the person I know is long gone
And yet I am standing here
looking at the vessel that
was once your body
You are looking out on the street
Drifting through life like a spectator
Like you were born just to watch
Your scruffy hair needs a cut
You need a wash
But you didn't seem to care
I tried to talk to you
But you only look at me
As I stare into those eyes
I saw that your spirit has already left your body
You seem possessed by another soul
You don't look like yourself
It seems that the person I know is long gone
And yet I am standing here
looking at the vessel that
was once your body
I lost my patience and tried to help you up
You still treated me like I was invisible
I search through your pockets
And I found cocaine
When I showed it to you
You got down to your knees and cried
You now know that you have been possessed
And you have lost yourself
It seems the person I knew is coming back
And now I am helping you up
The soul has retunrned
into your body
Aimless and fazed
I almost didn't recognize you
You look like you haven't shaved for weeks
So haggard and tired
It shocks me that you are now like this
What happpen to you
Where did it all go wrong
I couldn' believe it
That the guy I used to know is now gone
You seem possessed by another soul
You don't look like yourself
It seems that the person I know is long gone
And yet I am standing here
looking at the vessel that
was once your body
You are looking out on the street
Drifting through life like a spectator
Like you were born just to watch
Your scruffy hair needs a cut
You need a wash
But you didn't seem to care
I tried to talk to you
But you only look at me
As I stare into those eyes
I saw that your spirit has already left your body
You seem possessed by another soul
You don't look like yourself
It seems that the person I know is long gone
And yet I am standing here
looking at the vessel that
was once your body
I lost my patience and tried to help you up
You still treated me like I was invisible
I search through your pockets
And I found cocaine
When I showed it to you
You got down to your knees and cried
You now know that you have been possessed
And you have lost yourself
It seems the person I knew is coming back
And now I am helping you up
The soul has retunrned
into your body
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Thank You
It's been a wild ride
It's been a fun time
But now it's all over
And I know we can't be together
I will miss your smell
I will miss your taste
I will miss all the laughters
That we shared together
It's the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
The lessons you taught me
The people you introduced to me
Showed me a big part
of who you are
A servant of Jesus
A caring friend
A good time all round family man
I guess I was stupid to push you away
It's the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
I know that you have other duties on you
and I accept that you and I are not to be continued
All I ask is that you promise me one thing
That you never stop being you
Because...
This is the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
I do not know
What's going to happen to you
All I know is
I will be waiting for you
So please stay safe
May Jesus take my place while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
It's been a fun time
But now it's all over
And I know we can't be together
I will miss your smell
I will miss your taste
I will miss all the laughters
That we shared together
It's the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
The lessons you taught me
The people you introduced to me
Showed me a big part
of who you are
A servant of Jesus
A caring friend
A good time all round family man
I guess I was stupid to push you away
It's the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
I know that you have other duties on you
and I accept that you and I are not to be continued
All I ask is that you promise me one thing
That you never stop being you
Because...
This is the end of the road
There's no more down the line
This is where we part ways
And I will miss you while you are away
I do not know
What's going to happen to you
All I know is
I will be waiting for you
So please stay safe
May Jesus take my place while you are away
After all that we have been through
I just wanna say
Thank You
Thursday, December 10, 2009
The Pressure To Couple Up
Whenever, you go to the mall, or being at school, or having a meal at a local restaurant, or generally being anywhere. A single person who has never entered into a relationship before would definitely feel envious or rather uncomfortable when hanging around with a lovey-dovey couple. This is because this is when that certain single person feels that there is this void in his or her life, this void cannot be filled by just anyone, it has to be filled by someone you care about, someone you cannot stop thinking about, someone that when you meet that someone, it makes not only makes your heart flutter, your hormones go crazy and your objects of sexual desire tighten, harden and pulsate with pumping blood vessels of the need to engage in sexual acts, but also a feeling of pure content, happiness (not THAT kind of happy okay) and relief aka a girlfriend or a boyfriend.
The void that exists has a hunger of a need that is to be fulfilled, that hunger turns into insecurities and then all of a sudden a fear rises within you. You begin to ask yourself 'Am I going to be alone for the rest of my life where my only campanionship is four dogs who I treat like human beings?' By the way, the aforementioned four dogs are on hormone overload right now and yes they are trying to satisfy their beastial urges by fucking each other, especially Liberty! God, my most prized pooch is nothing but some high class slut who wants a fuck any chance she gets, going around mating with every single dog in the neighborhood! I can seriously tell you, the male dogs were literally LINING UP for it! And here I thought that I raised her better! Screw that slutty dog! (as if she isn't screwed up already).
Anyway, where was I? Oh right the void thing.
So then you decided to go crazy like those male dogs, searching around, seeking a suitable chick to screw around with, sometimes your hormones cloud your judgment that you decide to get any pussy you can get, even if they are fat, smokers and have shit for brains. (Don't you know smoking makes you fat and so not hot?)
After that, you got what you wanted, then you realized those lovey-dovey fantasies that your beloved non-single friends are painting do not come just like that. It is not something as easy as opening a pack of instant noodles okay? It takes a lot of work, honestly, a lot. I mean even though, I am in the dating game for a short time, I honestly already feel exhausted. It takes time, a lot of work, a lot of care, a lot of attention, a serious hangover, toleration and consequently, a lot of money. With my trip to Australia coming up, it honestly is a bad time for me to start a relationship, jeez, with the money I spend these days, I am really feeling the burn. It's like, I wanna impress you but Australia is coming up and I wanna enjoy, have fun, go shopping and buy some stuff from Quicksilver so that I am wearing what you people will be wearing next Chinese New Year (the 2010 one is THIS Chinese New Year by the way.) Well, at least I got my shirts down, I have one from H&M, and another from Topman, ready rock your socks off, there is another Topman top, but I am kind of worried about my bulging tummy. It is tough for me you know, when it comes to working out, I wanna work out but it's tough without support. I have no friends interested in working out, my brothers are lazy like sloths that somehow have a high metabolic rate, my parents are characters that if I go working out with them, I think I should move far far away or disappear from the face of this earth and hide in a hole somewhere in the Antartic, me myself needs constant motivation and support because I can't do it alone and I don't like to be alone. Moreover, that stupid mother of mine likes to buy unhealthy snacks in order to entertain Ryan, me being a person who likes to eat, finds it difficult to not succumb to temptations. Oh by the way, Ryan unlike his older brothers, get to eat whatever the fuck he wants.
As I said, relationships are tough. Those lovey-dovey couples are either drugged by hormones or truly went through it. The early stages in my relationship, which is now is tough, because we always argue and make up. It's been a while like this. We just got to know each other and taking it slow, very slow since it's a long distance relationship which I do not like. My adivce? Make sure that you prepare yourself before going in, because it's going to need a lot of energy and concentration, and sometimes it makes you feel that you need to rethink your priorities.
If you feel that you are not concentrating on work or school, and you feel that your performance is ailing, by all means, end it. In the end, your girlfriend is supposed to support you, not distract you.
The void that exists has a hunger of a need that is to be fulfilled, that hunger turns into insecurities and then all of a sudden a fear rises within you. You begin to ask yourself 'Am I going to be alone for the rest of my life where my only campanionship is four dogs who I treat like human beings?' By the way, the aforementioned four dogs are on hormone overload right now and yes they are trying to satisfy their beastial urges by fucking each other, especially Liberty! God, my most prized pooch is nothing but some high class slut who wants a fuck any chance she gets, going around mating with every single dog in the neighborhood! I can seriously tell you, the male dogs were literally LINING UP for it! And here I thought that I raised her better! Screw that slutty dog! (as if she isn't screwed up already).
Anyway, where was I? Oh right the void thing.
So then you decided to go crazy like those male dogs, searching around, seeking a suitable chick to screw around with, sometimes your hormones cloud your judgment that you decide to get any pussy you can get, even if they are fat, smokers and have shit for brains. (Don't you know smoking makes you fat and so not hot?)
After that, you got what you wanted, then you realized those lovey-dovey fantasies that your beloved non-single friends are painting do not come just like that. It is not something as easy as opening a pack of instant noodles okay? It takes a lot of work, honestly, a lot. I mean even though, I am in the dating game for a short time, I honestly already feel exhausted. It takes time, a lot of work, a lot of care, a lot of attention, a serious hangover, toleration and consequently, a lot of money. With my trip to Australia coming up, it honestly is a bad time for me to start a relationship, jeez, with the money I spend these days, I am really feeling the burn. It's like, I wanna impress you but Australia is coming up and I wanna enjoy, have fun, go shopping and buy some stuff from Quicksilver so that I am wearing what you people will be wearing next Chinese New Year (the 2010 one is THIS Chinese New Year by the way.) Well, at least I got my shirts down, I have one from H&M, and another from Topman, ready rock your socks off, there is another Topman top, but I am kind of worried about my bulging tummy. It is tough for me you know, when it comes to working out, I wanna work out but it's tough without support. I have no friends interested in working out, my brothers are lazy like sloths that somehow have a high metabolic rate, my parents are characters that if I go working out with them, I think I should move far far away or disappear from the face of this earth and hide in a hole somewhere in the Antartic, me myself needs constant motivation and support because I can't do it alone and I don't like to be alone. Moreover, that stupid mother of mine likes to buy unhealthy snacks in order to entertain Ryan, me being a person who likes to eat, finds it difficult to not succumb to temptations. Oh by the way, Ryan unlike his older brothers, get to eat whatever the fuck he wants.
As I said, relationships are tough. Those lovey-dovey couples are either drugged by hormones or truly went through it. The early stages in my relationship, which is now is tough, because we always argue and make up. It's been a while like this. We just got to know each other and taking it slow, very slow since it's a long distance relationship which I do not like. My adivce? Make sure that you prepare yourself before going in, because it's going to need a lot of energy and concentration, and sometimes it makes you feel that you need to rethink your priorities.
If you feel that you are not concentrating on work or school, and you feel that your performance is ailing, by all means, end it. In the end, your girlfriend is supposed to support you, not distract you.
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Brendan Goh, Down Under!!!!
Seriously the words are so damn obvious, but just in case you don't know, I am going to tell it to you in an abstract video. I am going to this place from the 19th, all the way to the 1st of January 2010. So check it out people.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Spotlight On: Cheryl Cole
Cheryl Cole is one of the singers from one of the ever popular Brit girl bands Girls Aloud, after they have decided to pull off from band duties for a while and try out solo careers, the famous X-Factor judge or Mrs Ashley Cole of Chelsea (BOO!!!!) decided to pull off a solo career first ahead of her other bandmates Nadine Coyle, Sarah Harding, Nicola Roberts and Kimberly Walsh. Now, unless you sound different from what your band usually sounds, you are destined for failue and also the fact that usually when it comes to band members who pull off solo careers, only one is destined to be successful ie (Beyonce, Ronan Keating, Robbie Williams, Rachel Stevens, Jesse McCartney). So with the already high status that she has (X-Factor Judge, Mrs Ashley Cole and a Girls Aloud member) expectations, to say the least, were high. So she released her first single 'Fight For This Love' and it hit number one on the UK Charts, her next single featuring Will.i.a.m (who she was featured in his song 'Heartbreaker') titled '3 Words' (also name of album) is slowly becoming a hit. The videos below show the vids, check them out before continuing, if your net is down or whatever (Guiliano) then download the damn song or play it in ur head for 5 seconds and read on. 'Fight For This Love' is an official video while '3 Words' is not.
'Fight For This Love' is a very catchy song, the video is a little French with a bit of Micheal Jackson in it. I love it. As for '3 Words' there is a certain kind of calmness into it, a bit of like song of peace with a nice clubby beat. Very smooth.
Cheryl Cole is what to us, as what any crooner was to our grandparents, smooth beats, nice clubby feel, a sense of energy but more towards peace. Think of a modern 1920s speakeasy, very Chuck Bass. Her music definitely needs a few more listens to take in it's hidden charm. At first, you would feel like this song is nothing special, but you feel that you should listen to it a bit more, then you keep on listening to it, which you will then find yourself loving it. Chery Cole's music is mysterious, noir, charming, calming, indulgent and a very outspoken soft confidence. I think that Cheryl Cole's album may probably find it's way into my car, because I can definitely imagine myself listening to it while driving.
So what are you waiting for? GET CHERYL COLE INTO MALAYSIAN AIRWAVES NOW!!!
'Fight For This Love' is a very catchy song, the video is a little French with a bit of Micheal Jackson in it. I love it. As for '3 Words' there is a certain kind of calmness into it, a bit of like song of peace with a nice clubby beat. Very smooth.
Cheryl Cole is what to us, as what any crooner was to our grandparents, smooth beats, nice clubby feel, a sense of energy but more towards peace. Think of a modern 1920s speakeasy, very Chuck Bass. Her music definitely needs a few more listens to take in it's hidden charm. At first, you would feel like this song is nothing special, but you feel that you should listen to it a bit more, then you keep on listening to it, which you will then find yourself loving it. Chery Cole's music is mysterious, noir, charming, calming, indulgent and a very outspoken soft confidence. I think that Cheryl Cole's album may probably find it's way into my car, because I can definitely imagine myself listening to it while driving.
So what are you waiting for? GET CHERYL COLE INTO MALAYSIAN AIRWAVES NOW!!!
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