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Saturday, August 20, 2011

Resolution Update

Earlier this year, I have posted a list of resolutions that I plan to keep for the year.
Here is an update followed by excuses of how has it been going on.
Resolution 1: CB or MMM
Crappy Budget status: On the fence, well I am pretty on the fence on this one, for one thing I felt that I am still spending at a somewhat stable limit, on days I spend more and some days I spend nothing where they both just cross each other out.
Make Me Miserablem status: No job = No misery = No Cash = PHAIL. Not very successful at getting jobs lately, maybe I am looking at the wrong direction?

Resolution 2: Flat Ass, Reduction in Waist Size, Skinny things and calves, thin looking face, pecs that are suitable for an athletic well toned person, muscles etc etc
Status: PHAILED (currently)
I dunno, no excuse for this one. My mistake is waiting for others to join me, should have grown a pair of balls and walked in and not get intimidated.

Resolution 3: Sing and Dance more
Status: Succeeding
I have been doing a lot more of that now, fun!!!!!!!

Resolution 4: Cut down on shopping, buy what is necessary
Status: ?
Well, I mean I have been buying a lot of necessary things lately, you know, all those essential clothing and stuff, the things I buy like ice-cream, clothes and stuff are necessary for my sanity so like I am succeeding right? RIGHT?
Status: I say succeed but feel that its more likely a PHAIL

Resolution 5: Go Vegan/ Vegetarian
Status: PHAIL
I love meat, that's it. I love my meat, especially PORK. You would never understand how to appreciate pork unless you have gone 10 weeks without it, fuck you NS. You would also never understand how to appreciate beef until you realized that your dad is no longer by your side, nagging about eat beef is like being as sinful as polygamy or something. Unless its veal, I didn't know what veal was until I googled it and saw what it actually is made of AFTER I made a fantastic veal dish. Just so you know, my heart burns and aches figuratively like  after what happened to a fat guy running after an ice-cream truck.

Resolution 6: Be More Positive, Enthusiastic, Ass Kissy
Status: Success
I have been a very very good boy lately, well its true! I haven't had sex yet! I have not succumb to my alcoholism yet!

Resolution 7: Drive less, bike more
Resolution 7 (b): Learn to ride a bike
Status: Success and PHAIL (respectively)
I don't drive anymore! I am so happy about that! But yeah, still unable to ride a bike

Resolution 8: Put a lot less effort in Debating
Status: Success but wanting to PHAIL
Well, this hiatus is nice but yeah, I still do feel the longing of debating against people from other countries and travel and such. Only time will tell, I guess

Resolution 9: Stay away from any one who has a Mac, iPad or Samsung Galaxy Tab
Status: Success, Obsolete and Obsolete
I no longer crave the Galaxy Tab. I have an iPad but yeah, managed to avoid anyone who has a Mac, kudos to me!

There is still 4 months left, summer beach bod, here I come!

Monday, August 15, 2011

The Ride Begins: First Impressions

Homework, Assignments, Assessments
Things are beginning to pile up now
I am definitely very very busy 
I rarely have time to myself
I might have to cancel or shelf the shows that I plan to watch
This new adventure is certainly throwing a few curve balls around my life

My social life, currently seems like its going to expand
I plan to join the committee of the Business Society
I am in the drama club
I am in the French Speaking Society which is very important, especially next semester as I would be starting to learn French
Then, there is of course the people that I met at orientation
I certainly do not know how long this gang is going to last
You know.
People move on and change and find new friends
But I am having a great time so far

Company Law has been very competitive and there are like a group of people in there who certainly are there to impress
For Integrating Business Perspectives, well, lets just say its the polar opposite
Met a few acquaintances at FIS (its called Accounting For Business Decisions B or ABDB, but prefer FIS)
Contemporary France is a small class but it has it quirks
Learning about Europe, getting a taste of what its like to be an Arts & Humanities student. 
It was interesting, very interesting and I had a lot of fun with it
Though it might not seem like it

As for a the few other loves in my life
Debating, I am still in limbo about it
I still do not know whether I plan to join or not
Kasun was the finals adjudicator of KLOC
I am pissed.
I mean congratulations and I am proud of him for achieving such a great accolade
But I am still pissed.
Because, it just lights a fire in me
That I want to compete and prove that I am better in the debating circuit
Like return and try for that glory and compete at Worlds
I had that dream once
Should I pursue it again?
Or shall I drop it and pursue other opportunities?

The Writers society seems fun
But the self publishing stuff is just not my kind of thing
I mean I want to at least have connections and opportunities to get a book published, fine.
But zines?
I don't know about that, seems very indy for me and I am more of the mainstream type.
Citing creative differences is what my head is currently spinning around for now

Well, obviously, you know there are more opinions of mine talking about nice shit and gossiping about the other clubs I have seen. But I don't want to anger anyone or cause some sort of outrage where people comment shit about me. I do not know why they do that, its just an opinion. This is what Malaysia has come to, everyone is so fucking sensitive and so self righteous, whatever you write or say that makes them FEEL that you are dissing them, they diss you. No wonder why Malaysian commercials show people pointing with their thumbs.

Dissing Anime in general and anime fanatics in general is a whole lot different than dissing the Swinburne or UTS anime club. But some people just take it a wrong way that they think you are insulting them. Opinions are opinions, they sometime do hurt but hey as long as they are general and not specifically aimed at someone, its fine. 

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Green Light Given, Adventure Begins

I have enough exemptions for me to be allowed to stay and study here, so it is green lighted.
I am happy to be here
Still trying to adjust here though
Trying to find my footing, building up my social circle, thinking of what clubs to join, waiting for interviews from jobs

I am still pissed at the person who left me in the streets
Its funny what infatuation, interest and curiosity can do
I liked that person
To be ditched like that
Not cool
I am still angry
I know its not worth it
But sometimes you just cannot help it

Its either being angry at myself for being so stupid, being so naive
Its being angry at fate
Its being angry at said person for being a big ass jerk
What can I do eh?

My mood right now is so 'Behind These Hazel Eyes' by Kelly Clarkson
I wanna send the message of 'Don't Hold Your Breath' by Nicole Scherzinger to that piece of shitass jerk

Monday, August 01, 2011

First day of school

Well, the pilot is still awaiting green light
I still do not know I am officially allowed to stay here because of the credits
But I wanted to, I need to
Because I feel like a new chapter of my life is starting right now
Having it cut short and then return home
It would suck so bad
I can only hope things get better from here
Something unexpectedly cruel happened last night
I could not believe it

Last night,
I have to say
I was not expecting what had happened
I don't want to talk about it
Since its a personal and emotional issue right now
There is no one else needing to worry about it
I am still trying to get my emotions in check
I have learned that I am overtly expressive
But controlling and stabilizing my emotions are definitely a challenge
I lose my temper easily, I cry easily
I definitely feel vulnerable and its hard to build a shell around myself
I still do not know who I am more angry at
Myself or that person

Its a real eye opener
You thought you know someone
But you actually don't
Heartbreaking essentially

But I am definitely not letting it get to me
If getting rid of the past
Is to move forward
Then I will

I am here to study
I have to focus
I don't know whether I would be totally be honest and open
or just build up a wall
All I know is that
Its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life
I am feeling good that I am here
I am ready to kick ass