Jesse

I am soooo fucked up!!!

My life is seriously stressed right now.

I noe i can handle the pressure

I just cannot handle the accumulating homework that rises faster than a balloon filled with helium!!!

Honestly, does the teachers have some kind of problem that they have to GIVE us homework almost everyday???

What ever happen to finish it in class???

I honestly just realized something, my blog is very mundane like jamie's and it's also as long as the friggin model essays by ramona!!!

No offense, she is a great teacher but the model essays given are just way too long for my wrist endurance.

Oh yeah, Myspace jesse has a boyfriend

His name is Dan.

I would like to tell my friends and everyone else that

I am NOT JEALOUS!!

I am happy for him, and not jealous.

Rachel, Aaron, Alexis, Samantha, Anna, Lawrence, Ekin, Mika, Alana, Jenascia, Rebecca and other pals.

PLEASE DON"T SYMPATHIZE ME

I got 5 hot chicks to be with what else can i say???

Although i am officially a bisexual, i still prefer girls more!

Come on!

You see my reaction towards the guy matches and girl matches in the WWE

Once i see girls, i light up

The guys are okay, only jeff hardy, kenny dykstra, DX, RVD, Hacksaw and Chris Masters got me standing.

Now jesse having a boyfriend never was a problem to me.

My matters are more worse than that.

Thanks to my mom, who wrecked the car (thanks mom)

My dad decided to do the worst thing he could do to a materialistic, egoistic, shopaholic and trendsetter/fashion stylist.

Budgeting my CNY CLOTHES!!!!

Ladies and gentlemen, please take a moment of silence in respect to the clothes that will never make it to my extravagant wardrobe.

Because of the matter mentioned, i am officially hating 2007 for now.

Man, graduating is never coming without a fight

Guess that's why they call it a series finale for this stage of my life.

I AM LEFT WITH ONLY 200 FREAKING BUCKS AND FORCED TO BUDGET!!!!!!!

Excuse me, clothes look good on me, it should not end up on the bodies of Eric Chong, Adam Chong or Thung Senk Siang.

The clothes that i look sooooo sexy on are either black or out of price range or out of style.

I cried silently in my bed for days.

No black because of CNY

My grandma said that when my daddy is small, they always wear cheap and out of style clothes, saying that at least we have clothes on our backs.

Nobody laughs at them, so why so difficult.

That's to people who have never met Thomas, Bianca's boyfriend.

Gosh he always mock me, at least i kicked his ass.

he is my rival.

Man, when i said that i am going to wear pink on cny because red doesn't look good on me.

My dad says, you look like and aqua.

I say real men wear pink

the shirt saids that too

and so does everybody in the mall

I truimphed but fell for another hot biege shirt, that looked so good on my converse shirt that i MUST have!

My hell has just intensified and

its only january

God, give me a break.

I am tired

I am suffering Someone help me.

Sammy, Anna, Lawrence and Lucy too.

We are all suffering

I can only hope for the best reward in the end.

But its still a long way to go.

Boy, i miss me.

Would somebody save me?
My life sucks, literally.
I have soooo many homework to do!
In fact, its too much that i don't even have time to MSN!!!!!!!!!
I am a certified MSN addict and I NEED TO CHAT!!!!!!
As if my life doesn't suck enough, my laptop has to go completely retarded!!!
Some letters on the keyboard are not functioning well.
I type but the words don't appear on the screen.
I HAVE TO COPY AND PASTE THE LETTERS!!!!!
What the fuck is the computer's problem?
If u noe how to fix this, pls tell me.
I am using my dad's laptop FYI.

Let me review u my list of homework that i have to do:
1. Add math project, due monday or was it friday?
2. Math, due next week.
3. Add math homework, due before March
4. Chemistry, report and summary
5. English, oral script
6. Malay, TWO EXTREMELY LONG MODEL ESSAYS!, due next week
7. Biology, about 20 experiment reports, due after two weeks.
Not only that, I have to get a friggin cow heart to disect.

Apart from my doodies at the torture chamber/ zoo captivity for teenagers, SMK Sungai Maong.
Also known as my school.
I have to plan a surprise party for someone special.
Not telling who, its a surprise.
Of course, I can't cancel

Not only that, my heart needs company, that's why i need MSN
because i don't have a webcam
because i don't have the software to upgrade the crap i call my laptop.

So here is my miss list and why.
Jesse
My MSN pal
You sweetness and sensitivity
Not to mention how caring you are is making me missing our intimate chats more and more each day
I hope that we can chat soon, c ya
Charles
I love your personality
The 'chats' we had has its own meaning and depth!
You are nice guy to talk to and your opinions are inspirations.
I hope that we can talk soon.
Jenascia
Girl, you are for fun than the Ps2 at home
You are the sweetest girl that any guy could have.
The chats that we had are very fun.
Ivanna
You are carefree, happy and very very fun.
I miss you very much
Plus, the way you call me Paris
Besides, i wish that we can hangout sometime.
Amanda
Amanda Banana, oops that's for Anna
Your personality always shines in my eyes
That is sooo cool cha noe
You are a nice girl and don't change
Hope to see you soon.
Darleen
Hope that you and Andre are having fun
Make sure he doesn't slurp okay
Men who slurp are pigs and should be dumped as trash
I wonder that will you be like me
Changing girls fater than changing cell phones.
Are like Rachel, changing boys faster than than underwear,lol.
Rachel
Our chat's are sooo naughty
Its ALWAYS about SEX
We always had fun, with the jokes and stuff.
Aaron
Best for last and its my best friend!
We had soooo muchfun, talking, gossiping and blahdy blahding
Chat soon.
F.Y.I. i haven't chatted with hem for days and i already miss them
LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!

I wish i was me
The very energetic and fun me
The Mickie James me
I am gonna buy new years revolution
Its funny though, only Anna and I LOVE wrestling
I miss wrestling
I miss RAW, Smackdown and ECW
I miss being happy and fun
I miss not thinking about school or suicide or cutting myself
I miss being me
God help me, i think i am turning to the emo clone of Jamie Ding

My life sucks
God! with homework, tuition and more homework, life is just hectic!
sometimes i wish i can skip 17 and be 18 so that i can be free and happy and energetic again.
My theme song is Lithium by evanescence.
Its the comfort of sorrow and the possibility of happiness.
My emo meter is rising.
I hope i don't cut my wrist like jamie.
or maybe even slit my throat.
10 months in hell!
Lawrence asked me a question during our usual monthly sleepover at each other's houses
That night was at Anna's house.
So anyway he asked me this
"Would you rather spend 10 months in SPM or locked in the elimination chamber for five minutes and being chokeslamed by kane,F-Ued by john ena, RKOed by randy orton, pedigreed by triple H and tombstoned by the undertaker."
I chose the latter
I mean ain't it obvious, we rather suffer physically than go potentialy psycho.
For example, number bases.
It drove me completely nuts!!!!!
Mr.Thien was grinning like K-Fed defeating John Cena
I was soooooo damn confused!

Anyway, Lucy says that i am too sweet and nice to other people and mus hate some people
Actually, i hate lots of people.
Here's my hate list
1. China
2. KL
3. thung senk siang
4. eric
5. ah bengs
6. those teen golfers at KGS think that they are sooo cool with their clubs, checked pants and collared shirts and ugly golf shoes.
7. mean or boring teachers
8. tyrannical principals
9. bush
10. osama bin laden
11. patriotic ppl
12. fireworks
13. heat and humid places
14. ryan
15. darren
16. flukes
17. Sexelettes
18. Conservatives
19. Badawi and the racist corrupted government
20. ketchup on hotdogs
21. geeks
22. annoying ppl
23. damai lagoon
24. uncivilised village idiots
25. steven seagal
26. my dad
27. soccer freaks
28. F1 freaks
29. basketball
30. Kevin Federline
31. posers
32. Kurt Angle
33. bugs
34. lousy cartoons
35. chinese music
36. chinese male artist (drag queens and posers)
37. ppl who eat endangered animals
38. hunters
39. monkeys
40. ripoffs
see i do have hate in me.

Yearly Reflection
Everybody has ta do this
Its like you can't avoid it.
Like there should be a catchup episode where you reflect on things you done the past year
That's wat i am doing right now

January
Old school, new class, new teachers, new cast.
Its so real and fresh!
Although we were looking forward to the so-called 'honeymoon' year
There are things that are not so honeymoonish at all.
To all Form 3 kids out there, form 4 is a larger hellhole compared to form 3
Half the class are now seperated.
Some went to transfer, like Zhia Hwa who bounded for Green road and Hui Hua who was romored to be in BL.
Some went to Science 2 and demoted to the "also starring" category like Seh Lin and Patrick
Some stayed on like Andrea, Michelle Lim and Michelle Chung
previous guest stars (Jamie, Liang Jiun, Lee Chin) are now permanent
The last 360 i had was back at kindy
So original cast are now dated back to primary 1
Liong Yew, Andrea, Brigid, Jia Jia and Me
jeremy has returned
teachers went a total 360 with the return of mr edwin who teaches us history.
(he used to teach us art back at form 1)
Tyranny of Helen tan got worse with the implementation of copying model essays
Ramona our malay teacher took advantage and gave us MILE LONG ESSAYS
It took me THREE HOURS to finish copying ONE of her DAMN ESSAYS!!!!!!
Our english teacher Mr Peter Sim was kinder as he gave us to pick and chose
Which we did.

February
I am striggling badly and I felt that i am suffering.
I could not handle the pressure and thought about suicide
The future was dim for me

March
I had a disastrous sweet sixteen.
I would like to thank my parents for ruining my life
Two reasons:
1, their cheap food choices
2. The exsistence of Ryan Goh
These two factors foundated to my disastrous plan.
I never failed to pull of a party suceessfully.
Guess there's a first time for everything.
Failed horribly during first exam
Wonder what the future holds
went to that Lee Hom concert
Okay, i guess, not enjoying it.
Jonathan guest starred in my bday an made an appearance on Lee Hom's concert
That's the last time I made contact him


April
Broke up with Lauren
Devastated Very SAD
Hooked up with Rachel

May
Failed again
Really clueless
Like Paris Hilton

June
Suffered horribly in KL
Vomittted, puked and expelled, i ended up feeling groggy
Went to Greece to model
Got on the cover of some magazine on Vogue.
luckily, my sickness has eased.
I had a fun time

July
Senk Siang Revolution began
(about that time, dunno and dun care)
Talking Trash about honor, respect, blahdy, blahdy blah
Ass KIssing every adult
Turned other prefects to bitches and assholes
Michelle LIm, turned on me
Backstabbed me
Hurt me
broke up with Rachel but dated jenascia

August
Started blogging

September
Celcom competition began
Worst time ever
Met Kyo

October
Celcom ended
liked kyo but never dated
jenascia and I are just friends

November
C ya Kyo, you sick jerk!
Holidays began
went on extra clsses and got a crystal
went to sweden on a holiday trip

December
Waiting for my ass to get kicked by teachers!
Went to England and Damai
Spent christmas at United States with the Casa la 7

Overall
i suffered a horrible year
the casa la 7 however, gained 23 new members!
Myy life of depression is just in the beginning as next year, i am going to
SUFFER
from
TORTURE
I felt like i can trust no one anymore
(classmate wise)
my heart is damaged
Nobody wants me in that class
I guess i think i should look into transferring next year.
or laylow for the whole year.

Fergalicious
So delicious
Its in every music accessory i oown

Wishing everyone Merry Christmas and Happy Hannukah

Emo much?
I don't know why but brendzsta's emo meter is rising faster a penis erection.
Honestly, i am so moody lately
I felt like crying and stuff ya noe?
Anyway, i am spending christmas at Aaron's pace
Julian, Nick, Lance, Blake, Todd and his previous boyfriend Jesse.
Luckily, Aaron has a large house that fits all of us.
FYI, his parents are in England with his maternal side of the family.
Aaron doesn't wanna go becuz last time he went there, he got it real bad.
Cousins bashed him up
Grandma was sobbing
Grandad told him to get out of his life.
Uncle's ar teasing him
Aunt's talk bad on the dad.
Pretty much everyone in his maternal side are hating him
It was real bad, Aaron got a bloddy lip, black eyes and got a bad cut on the head.
Luckily, no stiches needed.
Aaron was forced to stay in Micheal and Andie's house for the summer
It happened this year.
I was furious with his family
How could a family diss him like this?
Julian actually gave the oldest cousin a bloody lip!
Man, twinkerbell got some mean fist!
Honestly, can't blame them
They are a bunch of conservative losers anyway.
Gosh, really wanna kick their ass!
Aaron was actually removed from their family tree.
He has no paternal side though.
All of them somehow disappeared.

RIght now Aaron and I are alone,
Julian, Nick, Todd, Jesse and Lance are downstairs playing his Xbox, Ps2 and Nintendo wii
Talk about rich
Yes, he is watchin me blogging and i don't mind.
He is gonna get his ps3 and Xbox 360 soon
his mom spoils him
Only childs are sooo lucky!
Especially when he his stinkin rich!
Great he shook my head.
He is standing behind me
Hands wrapped around my neck
Head on my shoulder
Looking at the side of my face like he wanna kiss it
Yeah, yeah go ahead A that's wat best friends are for.

There is chemistry between us
but that chemistry says friends with benefits.
Not telling what kind of benefits
Please i am sooo bored.
Now its time for me to stop blogging
Its TTTKA in Smackdown vs raw 2007
Elimination Chamber
Aaron vs Brendan vs Jesse vs Lance vs Nick vs Blake
with Julian and Todd acting as wwe divas in a bra and panties match as the opening act
They are stripping each other off, lol
That's gonna be fun

Brendan so bored!!!!
God!!!!
I am soooo god damn bored!
There is nothing happening in my life and i am bored
Next year or two weeks later is going to be hell for me
SPM! SPM! Sissy Pathetic Man
My life has come down to one of the most mediocre but crucial moments in my life
Next year, i expect way more tears, torture and horror
I am terrified that i may be stuck here forever!
I AM NOT A LOSER!!!!!!!
I WANNA LIVE a life that is where nobody patronizes bi boys
I wanna party in clubs, drive and drink liquor
I wanna have SAFE sex other than my perverted, promiscuous ex-gorlfriend
I wanna meet two people that i have been close to than every single 1 of my classmates combined
In order to get what i want, I must suffer greatly
I know my head will turn to tomato puree by the time SPM is over!
I know that the 17th year of my life is gonna suck
I must prepoare m,yself for the inevitable
I must suceed and prevail
Next year Its TTTKA!!!!!
and i have to be ready.

OH MY GOD
He was running faster and faster
his heart was beating like a million times a second
Fear has held him on a very tight grip
choking his very breath
he's breath was harder and louder
each pant was showing more and more that he is exhausted.

He was running and suddenly somethng caught him
the hands were firm, hard and strong
suddenly his back felt muscular abs
the hands that caught his shoulders slid down to his hands
suddenly something wet and warm touched his neck
it was someone's lips
A MAN's LIPS

His body tingled around him
The electricity sparked in him
making him feel warm and comfortable
his whole body fell on to the mysterious man like melted butter

"Miss me baby"
he turned around and saw the man but he was masked
who are you???
just someone who knows and loves you for a long time

his hands slid to his crotch
he moaned as he fondled and grope them
next thing he knew, he was sucking the man's cock
and cum spewed into his face
the man disappeared
as he looked around with his cum on his face
he licked the cum that are around his lips and asked
who are you for the second time
just call me the cummer
the voice said

That was Aaron's dream
he told me that the next morning, cum was allover his body
TMI for God's sakes
well, as 4 me nuttin much has happen
well, onna post now

Do u care???
Read and comment on wat u think of homophobia

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school.
It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson"

---IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG...REPOST THIS---
IF YOU ARE IGNORANT... IGNORE THIS*
I dont mind what you do... but take time to reflect and think about this post, all judgments aside... do with it what you will.

Going crazeh!!!!
Yeah! You know what, to fucking hell with Kyo!!!!!
I can always find another guy from another country that is more kawai than him!
He told me to 4get about him so let's just 4get about him.
So listen to him!

Now that I am SINGLE and free!
I can do anything I want!
F.Y.I, I am in Sweden now.
Ahahahahahahahhaha....hah!
I am having soooooooo much fun
I am actually sitting in this internet cafe rite now.
It opens 24/7
So I am right now BLOGGING.
Probably be back on Dec 10.
So let me tell ya guys wat am I doin in Sweden.

First, we are staying at some hotel that is sooo 3 star.
which is fine wit me.
Aaron, Nate and Kenji are mah roomates.
Rachel, Alana, Michelle and Colette are just across the room.
Chris, Mika, Dalton and James are on the left.
While our door is conected to Ashley, Julian, Todd and Chad.
The Twinkerbelles aka Julian and Todd really freaks me out
I mean being a bi-sexual is okay
BUT
what really freaks me out is not their umm... femininity
but the MAKEUP
Jesus Christ, they look like a buncha clowns/drag queens.
Ewwwwwwwwwwww (shivers)
And they actually act like REAL women
And honestly, they are more ladylike than other girls
(shiver)
Girls, admit it, those two are the most ladylike girls you have ever seen and can pass better at being wives
Ahahahahahahahahahaha!
Imagine them being wivs to Jerome and Thomas
Gawd, that is ssoooooooo funneh!

I have no objections to homos.
I am just afraid of clowns and drag-queens.
No offense to these two though
they are actually Better and Fun without the makeup
and they can pass as eligible bachelors
Pass...BARELY
Okay, okay! Who the fuck I am kidding!!
They are as faggy as a bunch of drag-queens!

So anyway, we went clubbing, partying and well, clubbing.
We also went shopping
We went to play snowballs and build snowmen and ice-skate.
My ass is literally chilled
I suck at ice skating.
Always and I mean ALWAYS falling HARD on mah fucking ASS!
So neewat we also went to the ice hotel where everything is made of ICE!
Soooo cool.
And then we also went tothis icebar where everything is made of ICE
even the CUPS!!!!
pr short glasses.
Anyway see you guys on Dec10
my last day in Sweden after this I am going to England!
i AM GOING TO TRL to see the premiere of Rachel Steven's new video.
That is sooo cool
Can't wait
See ya

How to mend a broken heart
Well, as we all know that I am heartbroken.
Thanks a lot, Kyo.
I have done a couple of things to heal my heart.
maybe is just puppy love, ya know?
Hopefully someone new pops in or an old flame comes in.
Guy or girl?
Preferably girl but guys are welcome.
Hey, I am a bisexual anyway.
At least I don't date animals okay!

So different people deal with their heartbreaks differently
As a person that loves to try new things, I picked and choose.
So here is method number one: EAT!
I bought some ice-cream six of them actually.
10 bars of those large Tobelerones (love them)
and a few bags of potato chips (I don't know the amount as I dumped a bunch in to the cart thingy)
Watched reruns of Charmed, Desperate Housewives, Will and Grace and Buffy
But even the Power of Three could not vanquish my broken soul.

Method 2:Sports
I swam naked at rachel's beach at her parents beach house
F.Y.I she is staying there too.
It was one weekend only okay.
Yes, I bet she was peeking but I don't think so
This is not the first time she seen me naked.
I have seen her naked too, ya know.
When I was at Miami, Aaron and I were playing soccer.
Even though we laughed and joked and cried, still it doesn't work.

Method 3: SEX
Come on! Two teens in a secluded bech house
There's bound to be magic!
She is such a great teacher even if she is a minute older.
But it did not complete me.

Method 4: Writing music.
I have already wrote 4 songs about Kyo and still cry almost each night
Silently and discreetly.
I think I am going to make a video of it.
But I don't think I can do it.

Method 5: Dance and hang.
Sadly nobody can hang out with me as they are all...
TOO DAMN FUCKING LAZY
to
PLAN
a STINKIN OUTING!!!!!!!!!

So right now, I am still heartbroken
Still mindlessly playing the ps2 like a zombie
Still watching TV like a mindless zombie
Still reading like a mindless zombie
Still lying around at home like a mindless zombie
Still blogging emotional crap like a desperate housewife
Still crying or tearing like a desperate housewife
Still working out like a mindless zombie
Still going online like a mindless zombie
So basically i am a lost mindless zombie becuz his heart is shattered into little shards
Jeez, I am sooooo Jamie Ding right now
The emotionally crappy bitchy bitch who is also probaly rotting like me like a mindless zombie in this
sad, sad, SAD Holidays
Aren't holidays are supposed to be light-hearted and relaxing with stars are blind playing at the back.
I cannot wait till 2007 and focus on SPM
I cannot wait for December 29th 2007 when the casa la 7 are going to JAPAN, USA and FRANCE
for a triple threat celebration to celebrate every members 17th birthday!!!
Cool huh?
After that I am a high school graduate doing nothing
By that time, I wanna:
learn to drive
learn japanesse
and learn to cook!
After SPM results are out,
Bye, Malaysia and...
HELLO, Japan, USA, Switzerland or Australia!
I cannot wait
I don't want to stay in Malaysia!
IT will be my worst nightmare
Wait, Naional Service is my worst nightmare
No, staying here 4 the rest of my life is my WORST nightmare.
National service is not far behind
Evil Malaysian government who probanly brainwash Malaysian teens to turn them to terrorists or something.
There is no way you are sending me to that hellhole.
No FUCKING way!!!!!

Hey everybody, its the moment u have been waiting 4!!!!!!
Okay, wanna know why I feel so down lately, well I am heartbroken.
Honestly, I dunno why but it is tearing me apart.
Its breaking my heart piece by piece until it turns into little shards of disappointment, hyseteria, despair and sadness.
I think this guy maybe a fluke but I can't help falling for him
Worst of all, its a man.

His name is nicholas takeshi.
More commonly, Kyo
Don't worry guys, I have met him be4.
He is a really funny person that is sooooo adorable in a way, lol.
His laugh is soooooo infectious and warm and comfortable and funny.
Not like the CMS disease or the Catherine Yeo Syndrome
It's sooo nice.
His voice and his lousy English is some what attractive.
Body, HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fashion sense, sorry haven't raided his closet yet.
Oh yeah, when I mean lousy, it means that its lousy to me.
He is fluent in japanese becuz of his Jap-chi background(which i think its a fluke.)
His chinese is worse than mine (so u noe how bad it is)
He is also babelfishing terms and languages to impress and confuse me.
Colette, help me in french
Alana, help in spanish
As 4 Italia, Teresa can do that.
Oh yeah! Isn't Jean part Danish?
Help me in that.
Zack, help me in russian.
I sorta love his know-it-allness
He is also helpful in advice 4 life
Hence, the term confidante.

So we may never see each other again after SPM, he is going to japan to be with his family
(I think he just doesn't wanna see me)
Very paranoid, huh?
Guess its my nature.
It sucks not to see him anymore.
I love him so much
I don't think he is selected 4 national service.
To me its total bullshit! (national service)
It just waste three months of your youth.
Its like a brainwashing campaign or something
Turning teens to patriotic sacraficials
That's my opinion.
never going there, cut my Malaysian IC if have to.
That's he way it is.

So to vent this heartbreak, I ask the casa la 7 4 advice and here they are.
Rachel : Brendan, don't worry about that fluke. Wait for Sweden where we can have um... more of our sessions. Let me release the pain.
Aaron: You can always go out wit ur best friend cha noe?
Catarina: Where is that gay fucker, I'll cut his balls off!!! No one messes with Catarina's friends!!!
Lauren: Don't worry, there is plenty of fish in the see.
Mika: Can't believe you dude,this guy's nothing but a playa like me and u
Colette: Remember puppy love, that's what u are going through.
Melissa: Go straight Mr. Sin, that will show him.
Danielle: Brendan, let it go its a lost cause.
Yumi: Don't worry, there a lot more boys in Japan that are more kawai than him.
Chelsea: He is going to regret for the rest of his life because he let go one of the most extraordinary guy in this universe.
Raquel: Ooi, mate u gotta let go of ur heartbreak kay.
Tori: Remember Paris Hilton who changes friends faster than cell phones.
Chris: Dude, just 4get about that faggy asshole
Nate: Yeah, he is just a bunch of bull
Michelle: 4get bout him, not worth it
Jamie: It is up to you, think he is the one than fly to japan with him.
Ashley: Brendan, try finding something interesting to 4get about him.
Samantha: I was only gone 4 1 week and this happens, Get 10 large bars of Cadbury and meet me at my place.
Anna: Searching 4 the one is always hard, I am lucky to have mine so keep searching, u are still young.
Lawrence: Print his pic, paste it on ur door and throw darts at it.
Ekin: I don't think he is gay, he may be a hater and try to break your heart to satisfy himself.
Lucy: Pretend you are Britney Spears and divorce this K-Fed away.
Alana: If u are bored with Rachel, I am waiting.
Svetlana: Stay single, high school relationships always end up in divorce (britney's 1st marriage)
Todd: I am available too, u noe?
Alicia: Change, like J.Lo who changes husbands once in a while
Tonya: I'll be waiting too
Rebecca: Never give up.
Jessie: kyo, nice name, look Ryushi try dating other guys, if u are up 4 a girl, I am ready for a relationship
Jules:Ahhh...love, don't need it but can't live without it. dump him
Kim: there are other japanese guys that i can introduce, there are korean too, lol. Tell me if u are interested

Well, post more soon my dad's cousin and his girlfriend Julie are here need ta entertain c ya!

New blog
I have another blog at myspace check it out.

A little facelift
I have changed my blog to blogger beta
and comments are allowed this time.
So comment on any fuck u want.
I know that you guys see that I am a little less energetic I used to be.
Like Brendan's fire is getting smaller and smaller
I will tell you guys soon.
I am still grieving my broken heart
You know what happen to rachel and I\and you also know that it is not the reason I am down
You know that we are cool with each other
My problem does not concern her and hers does not concern me
Its someone else and the fact that I may never see him...
is tearing me apart.
apart from rachel, do you know anybody else I love and care that way?

YEAH!
Britney Spears is divorcing Kevin Federline!!!
Man, finally they are divorcing.
I mean he pretty much treats her badly don't you think?
But that is not why I am blogging
Even though my brother is pissed
If u watch wrestling then u noe
He SLAPPED John Cena
He made King Booker take away his WWE title.
Honestly, I don't give a damn about the drama queen world of wrestling.

So anyway as u noe MTV always has this artist of the month stuff rite?
So why don't I have 1 myself

Artist of the Month: Evanescence
Call me when you're sober is such a cool song.
Way differrent from My Immortal
Its more energetic and has a lot of escence
so Kudos to u guys

Watchout: Kellie Pickler
Kellie Pickler is so worth noticing
her first single red high heels is so cool
It reminds me of Natasha Bedingfield's Unwritten
The album is so worth it
Hope it rocks!

Spotlight : my Chemical Romance
I really dunno why but never heard of Black Parade lately
Its like nobody plays it much

Asian serve: Tata Young
Temperature rising is soooo cool
Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy is a great follow up to El-Ninyo
Not Cheeky
DAMN you consrvative Malaysians.

Speaking of conservative,
I think some people in 4sc1 are WAY too conservative
Besides don't u think they are a bunch of goody 2 shoes.
Senk Siang better stay in an Amish school for God sakes
Please, my bio presentation has lots of cute people in not too revealing costumes
Chris Masters was just in his wrestling outfit
And guess what they think it is?
PORN
Not softcore but they thought it was HARDCORE!
Pls they have never seen hardcore
just becuz I am the open one doesn't mean I am gay
and they talk about it
Please just because I chose sex before marriage and they think that I defied God or ate the forbidden apple.
Never mind
i cannot wait till SPM comes
because after that I will never see all those fucking conservatives AGAIN

Oh yeah this excludes my friends of 4sc1
If u consider me as your friend then this does not mean u.

At school...
Brendzblog is getting more popular.
Well nobody leaves comments but whatever
Liang Jiun is well, probably the most wise one in class
Not a Wiseguy a wise guy
He's very political in a way
He is also very intense
Well in a nerdy sort of way but good way
Senk Siang however was an ASSHOLE
guys, the reason I am doing this because I am at school right now
Anyway, Kyo is off the confidante thing 4 5 weeks
To concentrate on SPM
Sucks?
Hell yeah
Who am I going to talk to?
Like who else am I going to spend the phone bills till I get Streamyx
See nsome parents are DAMN cheap!
CHEAP!!!!!
Ugh, I hate SIMPLE people
Anyway, gonna post it now

Chilakah!
Always using this word lately, dunno why?
Used to say Crap! but now is Chilakah.
Oh yeah, um, to remain the blog's virginity,
I am not going to tell u anything!
Unless u are a close friend asking at a very private moment
U noe wat I mean
you bunch of Chilakahs!
see there is it again
Chilakah!!!!

Bad week much?
My life sucks and this is pretty much the worst week of my life.
Well, how can I put this?
First of all, to everyone who is wondering I am not in school on Friday
I am in the States attending a funeral, maybe back on Monday or Tuesday
So anyway, I failed Moral Suckies and Physhits (Physics)
Predictable and I passed History (Yeah!)
Then Jamie text and said Celcock (Celcom) chose Madumb Hillbillies(Matang Hilir)
Which hit me up to the roof!
Man I am sooooo PISSED!!!!!
Why do they chose them
Our team is the best there is and there is no competition
WE SHOULD HAVE WON!!!!
However, Celcock has made its decision
and good luck to Madumb Hillbillies
Hope u fuckers lose!!!!!
Oh yeah I am going to change my cell number soon
In protest to Celcock
When?
Dunno yet

After Jamie its Kyo, my ishiteru
Yeah, yeah, sorry Andrea 4 lying to u
so Kyo is a guy and a great charmer.
We got along well as friends and i fell for him
but since i may never see him again, its better to let go before we get hurt even more

After it ended, I got a phone call from Tara Miles
She said that Stephan died and will tell me about the details when I am in the states.
I was like shit and i called Kyo for sympathy
By the way, we are confidantes now.
and told him about it.

Stephan is a good all round STRAIGHT guy.
It sucks to see a good person go
and we must question good Jesus
why does he have to die so young!
he is only 22, in his senior year in college.
He died in a car crash, while travelling wit friends who are now in critical condition.
Their car got rammed by a truck which sent them to the rive
They got stuck
The driver called for paramedics
They saved the rest but he died of hypothermia.
Which made me cry even more
It really just sucks
And to make matters worse,
I left my add math stuff in Kuching!!!

However there is one good thing that happened which compensated everything.
I had lost my virginity!
Yes and I am announcing this to the world!
To who?
RACHEL!!!
Which means we are back together again
Thanks Stephan but i rather have you living than me losing my virginity
May you be at peace and in heaven chatting with Jesus.
Yes, I am a full-fleged Christian
but haven't got my Bible yet
Sherrie where to get one?

Argh
So I went to Sematan with my family which is never good to go trips with my family
My dad's idea as always.
Everytime we go somewhere some disaster has to happen
At 2001, we went to Borneo National Park, Ryan got a big bump on his head (Imagine the bump that always appear on cartoon characters after being hit wit a hammer)
4 months ago, we went to KL backpacking.
I got sick because my dad keeps on putting his feet on the foot of my bed!
I like to spread my legs when I sleep.
So i can't sleep and got sick.
I vomitted a few times at KLIA LCC terminal which by the way is so horrible (that's why i puked)
So anyway back to sematan, we went out and my darling ishiteru did not sms me like he/she always does
( not revealing the sex of my ishiteru, keep on wondering)
We were on the road, my brothers are torturing me.
So we finally reached sematan and i smsed my ishiteru 4 times.
I was worried because I have no common sense. (keep on imagining crazeh stuff)
So we went to the beach and did not really have fun (thinking of you my ishiteru)
I calmed myself and walked around the beach. Picking seashells for no reason.
My brothers are going crazeh and drenched themselves in the water
By the way, we weren't equipped with towels.
After they drenched themselves Ryan threw his shirt to the ground.
They played and wrestled. (Imagine them in a catfight but more boyish)
I walked around and played stars are blind in my head.
Wondering wat it will be like if my ishiteru and I spent a day there, alone.
So its time to head home, my mom sacrificed my rubber flipflops to help the the terrible twosome.
Pissed?
Hell ya!
So I followed back and they changed clothes (my bros) in public (plz emphasize)
My mom was CLEANING them (again plz emphasize) in public.
Too horrible to decribe not to mention embarassing (darren's 13 4 God's sakes!)
After that, my dad, swearing, whining, complaining all the way to the sematan public toilet.
My dad rinsed my bros shoes to rid of the sand.
My mom slapped of the sand next to the Avanza, my dad criticize her.
She said "Eww, smell like prawn and closed the door)
I head to the toilet, washed my legs and head into the car.
My mom was bickering wit my dad.
Its so loud that the ah bengs at the market could hear them
I told them that but they did not listened
So we went to Lundu.
Along the way, mom was spitfiring
dad was repeating everyhting she said.
Dad went to buy lottery tickets (like he will win)
Futile effort u know
No matter how much u spend on lottery tickets.
I switched places wit my mom
That's when Mr. Common Sense kicked in (where have u been)
Why don't I CALL my ishiteru.
So ishiteru picked up and told me that ishiteru out of credit
Only reloaded 4 two days and bye bye 30 bucks.
Becuz we played SMS
so ishiteru ask me to buy reload card 4 ishiteru
I say i think first.
I only got 122 bucks left.
need 2 save 4 KL
then, dad was done wit his futile errands, and we drove back to kuching
He was tour-guiding himself the WHOLE way
Everybody was not listening
my bros are sleeping
mom is quiet (very unusual so its a savory moment)
me, listening to music and dancing
also thinking about my ishiteru
so we went back and i literally scrubbed myself to be clean
Ishiteru, only two days to go till our romantic date
I can't wait
I wanna kiss u so bad cause you finished 30 bucks 4 me in two days!
I love u so much!!!
watashi ishiteru honey san
sayonara ishiteru, love you